Imma Be, Imma Be, Imma Imma Imma... FAIL D:

Bonjour. Comment ça va?
Hello. How's it going?

Well so much for that whole "I'm going to write so much oh my goodness this shall be so fun"(FAIL) It turns out life gets in the way apparently. But I can't complain. I really can't.
In the past week I've been exposed to many more people than I should have that seemingly don't have a reverence for human life, even their own. Being an atheist that shouldn't trouble me, right? Well that would be the accepted belief... but in actuality it's the polar opposite.

It probably increases my level of worry because it seems to me that our time here on Earth is all we have. Even if you believe differently, why shouldn't we make it the best it can be? My English teacher made a good point the other day:
"What's the point of living if all you're waiting for is to die?"

My answer? There isn't one if you have that attitude.
This feeling had grabbed a hold of me slowly but surely the past couple of years and therefore I am determined to live by this. (That and "A person’s true character is revealed by what he does when no one is watching." More on that in the future)

Anyways, the only reason I bring that up is because in the past week I've had cause to let life's ups and downs, well... bring me down.
But it's quite a realization that everyone goes through the pangs of loss, heartbreak, fear, anger and the like. And yet somehow people continue on, sometimes forcing themselves to get up in the morning. But in the end hopefully we all will be able to think back on at least one thing and say "Damn that was fun".
I wish to make the most out of my life, and help others do the same.

...And she's done preaching. haha :)



Anyways in other news, my mom watched all of the videos Hayley and I have made since we started over a week ago. She didn't care for our first ones, but said that we've gotten better just in this short period of time. Which makes me excited for the future, I want to see what we can do!


Alsoooo Lady Gaga's music video for "Alejandro" came out the other day. And OH MY GEEE. I feel like I'm the only one that's in love with it. Everyone claims that she's an "astounding artist" but they "can't see through her weirdness". Maybe it's because I'm weird myself, but I CAN see through her weirdness. I found her newest video to be beautiful and sad. It actually gave me chills.
She said: "[It's about the] purity of my friendships with my gay friends, and how I've been unable to find that with a straight man in my life. It's a celebration and an admiration of gay love—it confesses my envy of the courage and bravery they require to be together. In the video I'm pining for the love of my gay friends—but they just don't want me to be with them."

I think more than anything this shows that she's more human, not an untouchable pop star that has the opposite sex yearning for them the entire time. She has weaknesses, and is confused when it comes to love, which speaks to so many of her fans - and could speak to the ones who dismiss her as a freak.
I mean, she IS weird, but she's at least not afraid to be so. I respect her for that so much and unless something drastic happens, I will respect her for the rest of her career.

Okay this is turning out to be such a long post (pretty much because I fail at updating often enough) Okey dokey...

FACT: I have wayyy too many fragrances and makeup items than for my own good.

Quote: "I’ve got a perfect body, though sometimes I forget
I’ve got a perfect body cause my eyelashes catch my sweat
Yes, they do, they do…"

Okay so maybe all of my quotes may end up to be from songs, but I honestly think they have meaning. Even this lyric, which may seem pretty pointless. But as always, I encourage you to check out this song: