Oh, Stress, It's a Wonderful Thing. NOTTTT

Hellooo.
I've been troubled as of late, and maybe it's part of the reason why I haven't posted in a while. I could use the excuse that I don't have free time, but in reality yesterday I did, seeing as I got out of school at 12:30. (Granted I did turn in an application for a job, went to the library to get books for summer assignments, had a French lesson, and got icecream, but still).

My real trouble is stress, beginning with the feeling that I need to deliver like the last three blog posts, and not seeming like I'm addicted to preaching my values, which if I'm not careful, could easily happen.
Then there's finals. The very word sends chills down my spine, but thankfully I'm somewhat relaxed right now because I should be at school currently, but I'm not. That's right, I'm cutting on the second day of finals, bamf right there.

Hahahahahaha.
No.

I'm actually just not coming in for gym, then I have to go to an AP English 3 meeting during break, then take my English 2 final so I can actually get out of that class and into the next, AND THEN go to an AP Calculus meeting to pick up a summer assignment. Then it's go home studystudystudystudystudy for Chemistry then studystudystudystudy for French, both of which I have tomorrow.

So I'm kind of a nerd. But in comparison with other kids of my school, I'm a complete slacker. Like seriously, I have no idea how some people do it all.

So this is me: California transfer from the foothills of the Sierra Nevadas. Started taking a language in high school, planning on taking the SATS sometime Junior year, usually receives As without having to try because the courses are way easy. There I was a nerd. Here I'm a slacker. Why you ask?

Well I've met some people that: Have been taking a language since sixth grade, starting taking SATs 7th or 8th grade, receive A+s when I'm receiving Bs, do several extracurricular activities, in which they excel, take classes outside of school during the year and during summer... etc.

So is it alright to say I feel like I've been lied to my entire life, when I felt and was TOLD I was going to do fine, when in reality the entire outside world is going by at an unimaginable speed?
I feel like I realized that a little too late.
But I'm still trying, I promise! It's just even those thoughts in and of themselves stress me out. And I have no problem admitting that either, because it's actually helped me become who I am today, right now, at this very moment writing this blog.

It's also let me appreciate having fun a lot more and at least not waste my youth completely.

Ah! I'm doing it again!
Preaching that is. I gotta stop that because I feel kinda guilty when I do it, not going to lie.
I did have something I wanted to share, it's a blog from another user which struck me as really awesome and noteworthy.
The author is a 25 year old woman from Missoula, Montana. She has her bachelor's degree in marketing, and wishes to continue on to become a lawyer. She also has dreams of playing guitar and singing for a living as well.
There's just one catch: Before she can do that she has to make money, and she's doing so by working at Hooter's.

Now before you dismiss this, it's actually a wonderful insight and I think everyone should read it, because she's determined to break the stereotype, and I think it's working. Anyways, here's the URL:

http://girlandguitar.blogspot.com

Okay I feel a bit better after writing some of my thoughts down now, phew. I really should do this more often.
Okay, before I go:

FACT: I love writing and receiving handwritten letters

Quote:
"I'm never going to wait for anything
Never going to break for anything
Cause I am one more for love my love
One more for love"